I often get frustrated with performance documentation. I haven’t found a way to capture the essence of the magic that happened in the space. Watching videos back makes me cringe. They never feel like they caught the thing. So when I was invited to give a talk about my performance practice, I wanted to share in a way that allowed the people I was speaking to to really feel the performance. That’s why I first created this book.

 

I didn’t know what would come. But what arrived was a mix of new writing, reflections in retrospect, fragments I used in the piece itself, images taken before the performance in the exploration and processing phase, inages during and images taken after—when the performance had already changed me. It became a space to process, to gather, to document the shift in how I relate to the suit and what it carries.

 

Making it was unexpectedly joyful. Like compiling lessons, naming transformations, claiming the magic that happened. It felt playful and honest and necessary. Book-making is now part of my practice. I’ve decided I will make one book every time I perform.

 

Sand suit 2.0 - a performance book is a performance relic in book form. It carries the raw tenderness, ancestral echoes, and shapeshifting soulwork of the live piece. It’s made up of poetic fragments, grief incantations, and personal mythologies. It invites you to witness what it means to carry weight—and to begin letting go.